The Magician card is all about alchemy. Taking energies from their various sources and working with them to create a specific outcome. This is the definition of magic, after all. In the pentacle, one of the magical tools that lies on the Magician’s table, the circle surrounds a star made of earth, air, fire, water and spirit – and your will is the thing that keeps the circle strong.
It’s hard to keep your will strong, though, when you don’t feel well. Or when you’re taking new meds again, like I am. Each time I introduce something new into my system, my alchemy changes. The balance of what makes me -ME- shifts and so the expectations of what I can do or create should shift, too.
Honestly, though, I’ve been sick for four years now, and my expectation is the same as it was in 2019. I expect to be able to run a business and write books and run my life the way that I did then. It’s not realistic, and it’s not fair, really. It actually breaks my heart a little, but it is what it is.
We tend to hold ourselves up to the highest standard in our lives, and as Ted Lasso says, “That ain’t right”.
What we should strive for – try for – is a fair assessment of where we are each morning. Are we at 20% Cynova or 90% Cynova? If I’m on a new medication that causes exhaustion, should I really be beating myself up for taking a four hour nap every day until I get used to it? No, probably not. Because we were only taught to move forward regardless of our percentage and have the same results
Let’s try something different. Each morning, assess what percentage you are. Write down what you think you can accomplish at that number. Pretty soon you’ll have an idea of what you can accomplish at any level.
Go take good care of yourselves. Readings are open. xo