Cynova Crew Hey, nerds,
I love back to school. I loved school and was really, really miserable while I was in it. Here is high school Cynova.
– Totally uncomfortable at all times.
– 120 pounds, 5 foot, 4 inches and convinced I was fat and also ugly.
– Suuuuuuuper into girls but convinced that I would burn in hell forever if I told anyone and also Joan Jett, but her picture had to go in the closet.
– Really smart and encouraged to hide it so I could find a man
– Encouraged to marry someone who’s family had land and so I wouldn’t waste money on college.
As you can see, I have changed so very much since then, and also haven’t really changed at all. I’m still into girls and like Joan Jett, I’m still really smart, and I’m still really good at avoiding shit that I don’t want to do.
The problem with junior high and high school is that you can’t escape it unless you do homeschooling and that’s hard, too.
Remember these things about the next few years of your life, guys. And this goes for grownups, too.
1. All you owe these people is simple respect. That’s it.
2. The only reason that you go to school with those people is because their parents have a similar income, or that district is still busing folks in.
3. There are lots of queerdos and nerds in your school. Find the others. Congregate. Recognize the insignias. Rainbows, trans flags, and anime characters.
4. Look for the little guys. Make sure they’re ok.
5. If you’re a little guy, don’t be afraid to tell the big guys when you’re scared or threatened. Call the counselor. Tell everyone. Shout DON’T FUCKING TOUCH ME at the top of your lungs. What are they gonna do? Intimidate you twice?
6. Be as brave or as safe as you want to be. You don’t want to come out? Be straight at school. You don’t want to be called names anymore? Yell out loud. You are stronger than them because of all you’ve been through. You have compassion and fury for days.
Don’t forget who you are. You are here for a reason, and you have a divine purpose. If that purpose is to slap the caps off of someone’s knees, so be it.
Just make sure they hit you first.
Love and light and unicorn farts,
Lis